What?

Some say you battle with your emotions and find your own peace, some say you find people to give you peace. I used to believe that you find your own inner peace but it is a draining battle and most of the time, several fights a day leads to a teary eyed me. In hope, always in hope, always wanting, always thinking of "I need", always throwing a fit and demand for it, but no it does not come to you and you pray for more patience and peace to be infused in you to continue waiting and believing that patience honestly is a virtue but damn it, I cannot wait any longer. I cannot wait any longer, I do not want to wait any longer but the thing is.. I am still waiting although I cannot wait much longer with my patience wearing away, disappearing, eating my hollow heart up.