I really just want tomorrow's interview to be over already. Completely unprepared. I wish I could write succinctly on what my exact thoughts/feelings are as of now. I'm a complete mess this is a complete mess I ought to be applauded for my capabilities or the lack thereof. You'd think that the last few years were defying but truth be told, this year feels just as challenging and it's starting to scrap the leftovers of me clean.

One after another. Never ending. Too quick, I haven't yet recovered. It's gotta come to a halt. Please. I truly haven't got a thing left to hold onto any more. Hopelessness, that's all there is.