Where do we go

When you want something so bad bbut then it seems so damn technical and impossible you just question yourself if you're up to it.  Where do I go from here? I'm not sure. I think I just need to put down my name and cash in my $50 so I wouldn't have a way but to work through the struggles one by one and when the day finally comes, i'll have no regrets. I know for a certain that if I let this go, i'll never have the chance to pursue it again. So i'm doing this, I have to do this. It's the very thing I wanted. Why the doubt. Why the fucking doubt.

I could talk more about this. I need to get this out. Fucking technicalities, i'm making them scare me. I think I don't have what it takes to step up there. Where do I go from here.