Different

I think about today and it's like my whole world crashes down on me. I haven't felt a pain like death in what feels like forever. We go from 100 to 0 real quickly without warning. All I see around me is the worsening of such matters and I tell myself I'm determine to never experience it for long but how many dreams truly comes true? If this will only worsen in the years to come just like what happens to most of everyone, then I don't know anymore. Make me blind in every aspect then.

Human, merely human but never a mediocre lover. It's an unsettling thing to be, someone so out of the norm. Someone who loves so intensely, who bothers about it all even after years of commitment perhaps even on my deathbed. It's unsettling, being concerned, loving and Sentimental. The world makes me abhor the woman I've grown to become and never fails to remind me that perhaps, something is wrong with the way I  love, with the way I take any matter at all with a seriousness none has ever come across. On behalf of the world, I question myself, I too, join in and pick on all my traits just like everyone else does. It leaves me more depressed than I've ever been.

Heads up sweetheart, I'll be just fine. It's okay baby girl it's gonna be just fine. In our dreams, we belong together and that will suffice.