Good in the bad

Though it's been a terrible time and today is no different, there is still good in the bad. Life is one huge mess that I gotta look for the good in the bad.

I got in the gym and did things that I was always anxious and uncomfortable to try. It's been a good 4 years in the gym, I still get really anxious every time i'm doing my sets. Which is also the reason why I was really contemplating hard on getting a personal instructor so i'd be distracted and have someone insist I do things i'm uncomfortable with while teaching me the right techniques and shit. Then again, maybe in future. Not now because... Lol let's be real alright..... I do try to train myself better however. I mean it's the reason why internet even exists right.

So today I literally looked like a fool trying to grasp the concept of kickbacks and hip thrusts using leg extensions but perhaps life couldn't be any worse than it already is, thus my ignorance with regards to how foolish I might have been looking. I also ran at some beastly speed while doing my power sprints so that's great. I was just barely breathing by the end of it so it was a great session today.

Reminding myself to move and get shit done even when i'm so depressed I could die. Life waits for no man but i'd wanna be laid to rest already please. Nothing is worth it. Why are we even surviving again? No point with all of these rants, nothing is taking my life away yet, so I guess I gotta still get shit done.

Fuck. Fuck it all, to hell with everything