Don't bank on it

I try my hardest to not entertain the thoughts anymore. It never leads anywhere healthy. Still, I'll tell you that I'm unsure and that a high percentage of me still, doesn't bank on it. They say it's better this way, that I'll be left untouchable when all crumbles. I somehow secretly feel the same way.

Maybe I'm not in the pink of health thus such negativity, but I doubt you'd dare deny these truths if I explain further. What an odd time it is. Frightening yet numbing, all at the same time.