3 years

❤❤❤ We celebrate 3 years of love today ❤❤❤

Can't believe I met you when I was 19 going 20, finding my footing, getting better but still in a mess and with a heart that was recovering from a major heart break I never deserved to get into. And you at 24 going 25, looking for real love, unknowingly asking a fragile heart out for dinner in such a gentlemanly manner.

I remember feeling so extremely safe as you took my hand in the crazy crowd of people with air that smelt like cigarettes and booze but I thought I was just being an insane hopeless romantic, as always. There was something about you that I found so familiar, till today I can't quite wrap my finger around these feelings I experienced with. What's craziest is how well we connected with each other on the first day we met, and the subsequent dates thereafter.

You tell me all the time that you're still so blown away by how familiar I was to you, how you saw me from such afar and wanted to get to know me (and you barely approach ladies). I always asked what attracted you and you'd tell me "I think it's your hair at first but the fact that I spotted you from afar is just odd. Because I'm the sort that don't spot any one at all or get attracted as easily"

Hahha isn't it so funny how it took you so long to decide if you wanted to get my contact? Cause you were so worried I was too young for you and would break your heart? You tell me you still decided to take the plunge, thank you for that.

We still speak about the first time we met like as if it happened yesterday. We still talk about our days and laugh at it together. I remember how I felt so strangely attracted to you too, but yet didn't want to get too involved. You tell me that you never knew if I was truly serious and thought I was playing you in the first 6 months. Hahaha, you then came to realise I just had a bad experience with Love. Looking back on our days, i'm truly so thankful you stayed and was so patient with my lack of actions but abundance of words of love.

Thank you for loving me even stronger than the way you first did when we were dating initially. I'm truly the luckiest girl in the world and will forever count my blessings.  

Remember the craziness, when I get called insane and had everybody’s back turned on me just because they knew we were serious bout one another? You were the strongest for us at that point of time ( still is). I wonder how many times you had to hear me cry and had your shirt soaked through with my tears. 

 Three years later and after so much struggles as a couple (which to be honest, we’ve agreed that only married couples go through the struggles we have), we're building up Haylen and so much has truly been going on. You put me out there on the front line of Haylen, you make me model and be the face of Haylen, you leave me in charge of communications while you brainstorm the business ways of bringing up Haylen to higher places.

I never believed in myself enough. I only knew that I was never capable enough, and I'd always tell you that. You've probably heard it every other day of these 3 years spent with me. But you never took my lack of self esteem, self worth and confidence seriously. You  put me out there time and time again. From pushing me to participate in ON fitness competition back in poly, to right now. You’ve always believed in me more than I believed in my own capabilities. You’ve been so kind towards my heart. 

These Little things you do for me, like how you carry my bag all the time and feed me, how you choose the colour of concealers or nail polishes, lip colour etc that I wanna get, how you always throw any rubbish on hand that I’m  holding, how we always fall asleep  holding  hands everytime we get staycays, how you make real love to me and never fail to consider my well being in every way. The list  will go on. 

Spending these 3 years building nothing but pure love, respect, kindness and trust with you has seen my mental health evidently picked up, I know I thank you Everyday, but I hope you know how much you’ve kept me alive and finally kicking in these time you were with me. 

These days the focus is now on Haylen, and we spend all our time mostly together. We get our ass to the gym whenever possible together, we eat together, we work and  brainstorm about Haylen, learn things we never knew about  and get into debates so many times in a day and when night falls we leave work aside and settle down for our favourite cup of earl grey tea, talking again till it’s time for me to leave for home. Our  love continues growing, and I’m so thankful for that. 

What would I do without you? I always wonder how I got  through days before I met you? I wouldn’t trade you for anything else. I promise to always be thankful and appreciate the man that you are. Thank you for being my safety Harbour, my sunlight, water and air to the flower that I am, the man who always guides us to higher places, the one who holds me when I’m weak.  I want to always care for you as deeply as you do so for me.

I love you, more than words will and can ever say. Happy 3 years of love babybubs, here’s to more years of adventure with you ❤️