In time to come

Of stale air and heavy but yet silent breathings, we look around in hope to see or feel someone of a twin but we are all invariably side-stepping situations like these. We are all in desperate need of something and I wish I was like obvious guidelines or had a "I bare my soul 24/7" in me but of course, who am I kidding. If only one was there to wait patiently for me to unravel. I've been longing to have something of obvious fronts and not of waiting for the flower to bloom but to no avail kinda thing but I am nothing of such. Truth to be told.. I think I could and would be of something jaw droppingly beautiful once you got the doors of my castles knocked down but I wish any one of you could stand me more than I have stood myself. See those nights where I fight so hard against negativity that hits me in the gut? See those days where I don't allow any to get my solitude? See those times where I lay stark nakedly throwing out all thoughts and emotions, then falling into slumber with streaks of tears still visible on my bare swollen face? If you tasted those tears you'd know how the bitterness I was filled with.

You know, how I walk with my head as low as it can get... If you'd take the time to put your hand on my chin and lift it higher you'd notice the obvious eye rings of evidences of staying up late. If you'd take the time to ask, to question, i'd say, i'd spill. If you'd stay put while I go through my own ride of silence, i'd bloom. I'd bloom for you as a reward for your patience, love, genuine and sincerity. I'd bloom willingly.