Just wanna be at the state of my life where I can work on things without worrying my head off over things. Get them bars, get them shoes, get them shakes, get them personal trainers, get them pants, get them food, get them lip colors, get them clothes, get them all. I know that wouldn't ever happen.

I wish I was selfish and less aware, less concern. I'm beginning to realise i'm real screwed and I wouldn't ever win with such traits of mine. Is there no way out of all of these. i need help. calling for sos